*...Forever Me...*
*...Loves...*
Singing*...Detests...*
Betrayers*...Goals to be achieved...*
1) Get my dream job in recording/entertainment company*...Memories...*
*...Love Whispers...*
*...Exits...*
My life is really hectic and busy since the sem started till now. Is it a good thing? Well maybe it is because at least I do not have free time to think about those nonsense. So what am I busy with recently??? The first place of course will go to my DJ Club. Since it is my final semester, many things have to be taken into consideration when I do any decision. Besides this, it will go to Fresh Bottle, 创作坊's annual 发表会. This recital will be held at MMU, Cyberjaya which is on 8th March (Wednesday) at 7.30pm. Actually I am kinda excited and nervous at the same time due to this recital/performance. Need to sing and even play keyboard. Hmmm... kinda stressed up lately. Before that I thought that Zepphians would come over to support me but then now it seems like it will be a bit hard. They are busy with their own activities as well. Hmmmm...actually I was kinda disappointed when they told me but then impossible I wanna force them right?? Hmmm...nevermind la and just see how thing goes. Haihhhh need huggies from my friends sometimes haha. My roomie is the first one to say....NO~!!!! Wuahahahhaha...sounds like I am gonna molest her or what. But thanks to some of my friends especially my housemate, Auntie. Hehe thanks for the huggies that time when i needed it (though I still need it sometimes, haha). Thinking too much lately??? I guess so. I guess I should try to control myself for being emotional sometimes. Have been in bad condition recently. This is not a good sign. I hope that my head is not gonna explode at any time. Okler, it is about time to practise singing again. Gosh time passes so fast. Next Wednesday will be a big day for me. Ganbatte Emily~!!!!
The year of 2006???!!!! I am speechless with this 'wonderful' year. I thought it should have come to an end but still, things occur continuously, again, again and AGAIN~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Since the beginning of this year, it just never wants to stop. Why is this keep happening? When does it want to stop? Who can tell me????? Bad things keep happening in my family since then. One by one it happens and even gets more serious. I am really tired with all these. What have I done wrong or what has my family done wrong???? Why want to treat us like this??? All those 'surprises' keep coming into my life. Who can tell me what to do???? Anyway, just want to apologize to my junior DJs here regarding yesterday. It was supposed to be a celebration but I think I did ruin it a bit. I just couldn't take it because it was really a shock. And thanks to Ah Pek & Auntie for lending me your ears. That is more than enough from you guys. Thanks :) My mood now....??? I have no idea as well. Was much better these days but now.....hmmmmm....don't know~!!!
Well this post was supposed to be a long one but just now suddenly there were some problems and now I have to rewrite everything~!!!!!!!!! Sighz annoying~~~!!!! AAhhhh nevermind. Let me recall what I wanted to tell here at first. Basically, yesterday was the Spring Carnival which is one of the CNYE events organized by Chinese Language Society. Radio MMU is the official radio station for this celebration. I have selected few of the DJs to be the Emcees for each event.
My fellow junior DJs booked a table for 'Lou Sang' yesterday. We bought lots of food to eat together while waiting for the event to begin. It was kinda fun especially with my DJs. They can be crazy at times, haha. At about 8pm, Sean aka Ah Pek and Ivan appeared in the crowd. So, I went over and chit chatted with them while waiting for Boon Chin aka Auntie to come back from Puchong. After about 30 mins, Auntie arrived and I was forced to bring her around. Since when I was the organizer of the event?????? Hmmm I wonder but anyhow we did enjoy chit chatting there also.
Then, I heard that Eric will be arriving soon already so I went back and joined my juniors. Not long after that, I saw Eric coming down from the stairs and that was when those students screamed and shrieked damn loudly. Gosh, I almost became a deaf fella. To enable me to snap nicer photos, I went to the front and stood there. So, Eric started his performance with his first song which was 世界不会末日. That was the song that I have chosen and he has promised to sing when he performed here. Eric, thanks a lot and I really appreciate it. Thanks for being such a good friend :) At first I was still okay with his performance and those jokes he made around. But once he sang the song, Love's Eternity, my feeling suddenly became kinda weird already. Is it because of the lyrics??? or the melody??? Well, I don't know. Anyhow, the song really did change my mood. I felt a bit moodless after that. Think too much I guess. Even when I talked to Eric after his performance, I still sounded so dull. I was not sure whether he realized that or not. Anyway, his performance was not bad and the atmosphere wasn't dull after all. So, that's it for the Spring Carnival. This Wednesday will be The Chinese New Year Extravaganza Night. Hope my juniors can do well in mc-ing. That's all from me now and adios~!!!
~Eric singing the first song, 世界不会末日~
~Eric & me...hmmm this photo is kinda blur~
Oh yeah almost forgotten that tomorrow will be Valentine's Day. Hereby, I would like to wish all my fellow friends, HaPpY VaLeNTiNe'S DaY~!!! But anyway, is Valentine's Day so special??? Don't know.........
It has come to an end.........
2 months of relationship with him, at last has come to an end. I am back to my single status again. Is it a good thing or a bad one?? Well, I do not know but then I only know that I shouldn't drag his time anymore. The incident in Penang has made my mind clear about this relationship. Although it was only lasted for 2 months but I was serious in it. I will not simply start a relationship if I am not being serious. This is what my principle is. Anyhow, I did try to gain back the feeling and also did try to improve this relationship, but then it still seemed like not working well. The feeling is gone means it is gone. I can't always lie to myself about this. I chose to tell him the truth too. Now, he knows everything already. How I feel, what I want and my future. Both of us are from different world. Our aims and planning for the future are totally different. Our thinking and point of view are totally clashed as well. How can we continue if the basic requirements are not being fulfilled by 2 parties??? Well, I have no time and even strength to improve the relationship since I have many other problems ahead. I am really tired and I guess he thinks the same as well. Our unhappy moments are more than happy ones. Therefore, it has been decided to come to a full-stop.
Emily, welcome back to the single life~!!!! Be strong and have a new life~!!! :) Can you do it???
Chinese New Year --> what should I say about this year’s Chinese New Year???? It was supposed to be not bad at first because managed to meet all my relatives. Some of them only can be met once a year. Therefore, I brought my lovely camera back to Bahau (my daddy’s hometown) this time because wanted to take photos with my relatives. Did manage to take many nice photos with my cousins and even my nephews and also my nieces. Ang pao that I received for this year was not bad. Some even gave me double since they have promised to do so for the past few years. Hence, I can say that it was not bad after all.
Then on the previous day, my koko and I joined his jazz club’s members for a trip to Penang. This was the first time for me to join them, so was a bit worried that I could not mingle with them. I only know Raymond koko and his girlfriend but as for others…strangers!!! Anyway, it was not bad to join them and even managed to know some new friends which include Ben, John, Mark, Leon(Datuk) and etc. Since I was in Penang, therefore I tried to plan on meeting Grace who I had never met before in real life. In the end, the plan was just nice and I had couple of hours to meet her. At first I went to her house and talked to her mum. Her mum was indeed nice and funny. At first I felt a bit inconvenient and embarrassed because that was the first time meeting Grace, first time going to her house and of course first time meeting her mum. Her mum even gave me an ang pao. Really thanks her for being so warmth and friendly. After that, Grace’s mum fetched Grace and me to Gurney Plaza. Due to terrible traffic jam over there, her mum dropped us nearby Gurney Plaza. It was just a short walking distance for us to reach there. That was the moment when the tragedy struck. Actually that time Grace was telling me to be careful with my handbag and we were even comparing the cases in Penang and KL. While talking about it, I tried to cling my bag near my chest and that was when suddenly I felt like being knocked by someone. I couldn’t recall how exactly it happened. What I knew was my handbag was not with me anymore~!!!! I just shouted ‘aaahhh…’ a bit and was stunned. My handbag was with the 2 fuckers (either Malays or Indians) who were on the bike. THEY SNATCHED MY HANDBAG!!! Actually I could get it back because after they grabbed it from me, they almost knocked on the car. My heart kept telling me to get it back but then my legs could not move at all at that moment. What I did was just standing still while staring at my handbag. Grace also didn’t shout and was stunned as well. Both of us were so shocked and did not know what to do. I tried to cool down and not letting myself to cry. Then, I realized that my handphone was still in my pocket and I straight away called my koko and of course he was stunned as well. Not long after that, Raymond koko came with his girlfriend in his superb Jazz. When he came and asked about my injury, I couldn’t take it anymore and burst out. Then I saw my koko coming with Datuk and Ben. They asked me to get into the car while my koko kept calling my daddy. Grace lent me her handphone to terminate all my ATM cards, just in case. After that, we went to the nearest police station to do report. Luckily daddy called Uncle Wong to help us on this. Thus, I was being treated damn nice by the sarjan there. Haih I hate those hypocrites. They will only treat me good when they get to know who my daddy is. Damn it all of them!!!!
Sighzzz… woke up early in the morning today to do my IC, driving licence and my ATM cards. Waited for so long and now almost all of them are done. Money is all the matter over here. Need to pay compound for all the losses. God damn it~!!!!!!!! Got snatched but still need to pay. Anyway, if the camera was not in the bag, I would have felt better. It is so precious to me because it was my 21st birthday present. I wished to get it decades ago and now it is gone~!!!! GONE GONE GONE~!!!!!! Curse those F***ers… god damn it…son of the bitch… &^$@!#^%$&%$@#!#%^
~Jazz Club's members with their cool Jazzzzzzz~
~Raymond koko's superb Jazz which appeared in the magazine before. Like his car very much. He drove this car to 'rescue' me when I got snatched in front of Gurney Plaza with Grace~