*...Forever Me...*
*...Loves...*
Singing*...Detests...*
Betrayers*...Goals to be achieved...*
1) Get my dream job in recording/entertainment company*...Memories...*
*...Love Whispers...*
*...Exits...*
Yesterday mummy told me about him. Haha sounds like is a good thing for me to just be friends with him. Is it?? Why is his mum so strict towards him? I don't think is a good way to do so. Anyway, it is none of my business already. Just hope everything goes smoothly for him, hehe. So, MMU has started its new academic year, new semester. This time I am not like how I used to be. Not gonna attend anymore classes there. Anyhow, I still need to go back to Cyber this week which is probably on this Thursday. I have DJ Club final meeting on Thursday and even 1 more paper for me to sit for this Saturday. My lovely Japanese paper which I was sick during my final paper. Therefore, I am partially graduated only at the moment. Haha can't wait to officially declare that I am a graduated student. Seeing so many friends of mine are in my YM's list. Mostly are still studying at MMU. Hmmmm... the feeling is a bit weird though. Feel like something is missing but can't figure out what it is. Then suddenly recall how my friends celebrated my birthday for the last few years. Seems like this year it will never gonna be the same again. The nearer my birthday is, the more I feel like not celebrating it. Why???!!! I have no idea why I have this kinda feeling. Weird huh?? Thinking too much I guess.
So mood of the day --> Ambiguous -_-".jpg)
Hey hey hey, I just got back from Taiping yesterday evening. Why out of sudden I came back from Taiping? Well this is because of my friend, Rachel Suzanne and the gang are doing short film shooting for competition purpose. She told about this and asked me whether I was interested to be one of the main actresses for this short film. If yes then I had to go to Taiping with them and also with another main actress who is Hui Ting. Haha... my junior in DJ Club. I was being told about this on Thursday and I had to go on Saturday. MY GOD!!! Told me 2 days before about this and needed me to decide on that night itself. Aiyoyo!!! Left few hours for me to decide that day and after thought for long, I made up my mind to give it a try before I begin my life in the working world.
So, there I went to Taiping with them on Saturday. Hui Ting and I acted as LESBIANS. Sounds like the movie, Brokeback Mountain by Ang Lee...hahahaha!!! We watched it on Saturday night as reference. Gosh the movie was so....so...ahem. Luckily the director didn't request us to act till like that wuahahahahaha~!!! So, I acted as the male character so I needed to be cool and tom boyish. Haha... I thought I could really act cool with those cool clothings but when they told me about my role in the film only I realized that we both needed to act as those village teenagers. Aiks... most of our clothings were damn old and ugly. Sob sob :( :( Couldn't wear and be pretty pretty in my first shooting. However, if you ask me what I feel about acting and film shooting, hmmmm... I would say that being an actor or actress is god damn not easy. It is so, very, absolutely, definitely and extremely tiring~!!!! All this while I assumed and thought that those NG scenes were only due to mistakes done by the actors/actresses and technical problems. But actually it is not only because of these. I still remember the very first scene on Sunday. Hui Ting and I needed to act and say out the same conversation for about 6 or 7 or 8 or 9 or.... XXX times. I also don't know how many times. Our acting, reaction, facial expression and conversation have to be the same. My god...repeated it till I felt numb. They took many times from different angles. From far distance and also close-up. Fuhh... really not easy~!!!
Anyway, I kinda enjoyed myself even though it was a tiring period for me. Did gain some experience from it. I still remember Hui Ting had a crying scene on Monday evening. As for me, my crying scene was on Tuesday morning. Wat the heck!!?? Didn't sleep for the whole day and asked me to cry in the morning with my blur blur face. Gosh... luckily Rachel brought her mp3 player. I listened to the song, 暧昧 by Rainie Yang. That time I tried to think about him. This song describes well about me and him. After listening to it for about 3 times, I started to sob into tears. The director saw me crying and quickly came to take his shots. My tears kept rolling for approximately 10 minutes. I was waiting for the director to say 'CUT' because I was almost out of tears already. Haha... this director, gonna sue him for abusing Hui Ting and me. Kekeke. Actually not bad since I could really cry out. If not I really wasted their time waiting for my tears, hehe. So basically, I tried lots of things which I hadn't tried before such as riding a motorcycle, acting as a lesbian etc. Nice experience though. Now will be waiting for the final outcome after their editing. Wanna see how I did for the first acting in a short film. Besides obtaining experience from this, I am even darker now compared to the moment I came back from Pangkor trip. That time I was a bit darker already and now I am even darker than that. WUAAAAHHHHHH~!!!! :( :( :( I WAN MY FAIR COMPLEXION BACK!!!!! In addition, I also gain lots of bruises, scratches and rashes on my legs and hands. They are even swollen now. They become like this is all because of the scene that Hui Ting and I needed to play and lean on the grass. My skin can be very sensitive at times. Now my legs and hands are reddish and are also full with red dots. My mummy was stunned to see them to be so. Even I feel like puking when I see my legs especially. My god, damn itchy somemore. AAhhh...itchy itchy ITCHY~!!!! I need to see doctor and get injection to stop the itchiness already. Got to go now before I die of itchiness. *sob sob*
~Look at my legs...many of my friends do not believe on how serious my legs are...so let me show you all here. Bruises, rashes, red dots etc etc. They look like I was being abused by others, haha. My legs are even swollen now. They look like pig legs...wuahhhh~
~My right leg, the most serious one. Looks so scary....yiaksss~
~My right leg again...sob sob...when will my legs recover???~
So now, I am in the shop alone in the middle of the night. What am I doing alone here? Well, doing some tasks for my mummy. Then go online and find some information on my future career and etc. Suddenly feel like viewing those photos taken at Pangkor Island since Miss Kuan sent them to me few days ago. Those photos reminded me of those happy moments since I was in Alpha till Delta. Hmmmm...I miss the good and brand old days again especially the final sem which has just passed not long ago. It was the most happening sem in my University life I should say. Recital Night which was my first performance in MMU, Unite which was my graduation prom night, DJ Appreciation Night which was the ever first dinner by Radio MMU(DJ Club), first time to experience the atmosphere of clubbing, my graduation trip to Pangkor Island and etc etc etc etc. Aaahhhh many things are popping out from my mind now. I miss you, I miss him, I miss her, I miss them, I miss it....I JUST MISS EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING. Sounds like I am going insane again. Hahaha...okay stop crapping about that. Let me post some photos of my trip to Pangkor here.
~At Lumut Bus Station...waiting and meeting up all the members of the trip --> 5 guys & 5 girls~
*On the way to Pangkor by ferry ---> 5 girls*
~reached Pangkor...yeah~
*look at the so-called petrol station...hmmm Shell with RM2.19 per litre...gosh so expensive*
~5 girls in the hotel room...tired already...felt like ZzzZZzzzz-ing~
**look at the sunset...extremely beautiful and romantic...I prefer sunset more than sunrise**
~BBQ time...we had my favourite hotdogs, prawns, chicken, corns, fish, fish balls etc etc etc...yummy!!!~ 
*Our liquor of the night after the bbq...we drank all of them while lying on the beach with all the stars above us...first time ever I saw meteor in my life...so niceeeeeeeee*
~Yummy....all of us were enjoying our food....yummy~
~at the jetty...waiting for ferry to go back to Lumut...going home looooo~
Wuahhhhhh now only I realize that it has been 1 month that I haven't updated my blog. What to do??? Too busy with my assignments, then with my final exams. Right after that I had to pack and move all my things back to hometown since I am gonna graduate soon after I obtain my result. If you ask me whether I have graduated??? Hmmm...not yet not yet. Still waiting stil waiting. Since I am graduating soon, for sure there would be a graduation trip with some of my fellow buddies. We went to Pangkor island on 28th May which was on Sunday till 31st May, Wednesday. I will update on the trip once I get all the photos and videos being taken from my friends. So as for now, I am back to my lovely hometown. Started working after the trip since I have promised my mummy to help her in the shop. She told me that I will be paid. Hmmmm...I wonder whether it is true or not. Hahahaha~!!!! Anyway, let me officially declare and announce that currently my position of my job is as ASSISTANT MANAGER~!!! Muahahhaa...sounds great huh? Let me clarify first. My mummy is the General Manager and of course I am the Assistant Manager. If want to be more specific, I need to do many stuffs in a way. Clean the floor, serve the customers, make Milo for my mummy if she wants it, online when no customers etc etc etc etc~!!! Hahaha....so now you are very clear with my position right???? Hahahahahhahaahahaha...LOL~!!!
Ahhhhhhh....I miss my fellow buddies already. What are they doing??? When can I be able to meet them again??? HAIHHHHhhhhhhhhhhh......... :( I miss the brand old days with them *sob*sob*